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KATHY'S CROCHET CABIN
Monday, January 2, 2017
The end of 2016
Since Tim passed away on December 11, 2014 I've gone through a lot changes. It's been hard trying to figure out how to live without him. Trying to figure out who I am anymore. I still miss him so much, he was my soulmate. I can go out to eat by myself now but I do still cry if it's a place he liked. I've started crocheting again. I can't make the preemie bereavement sets yet, but I can make hats for the homeless and cancer hats. I can go on little hikes by myself and take short drives. I was never afraid when Tim was alive but that changed. About the time I think I might be getting a little better I find myself in my dark place. But I'm going to try really hard to find a happy place in 2017. That's why I'm going to try to post here and hope I can find something good to share. I will find good in all things. Have a blessed day!
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KATHY
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It gets easier, take each day as it comes. There is no right or wrong way to grieve or for how long it takes. It took me a while to find myself and occasionally I do slip. I allow myself these little slips, then I give myself a good talking to and get back into living my life. Do it at your pace, don't let anyone rush you. I became a volunteer at our local information centre and also at an adult literacy centre. It was way out of my comfort zone and I admitted that it was worrying and scary. I couldn't craft for a couple of years, then I met a lady who encouraged me to get back into it. I thought of Mik and what he would think of me doing all this without him and you know what, I know he would be proud of me. You are strong. The only person you have to be honest with is yourself. Never apologise. Accept help when needed - this is something I found so hard to do! Be kind to yourself. Don't be afraid, fear held me back from so much. Even now, 10 years later I sometimes succumb to it over the littlest of things. But then I look back and see what I have done, take a deep breath and tell myself I can do it. You will get there, you will have more light than dark in your life.
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Jan
Thank you so much Jan for taking the time to post this. Everything you said was what I was feeling and thinking. Everything you have been through has made you a very special person. Your words really touched my heart, I shed a few tears. Prayers to you! One day at a time.
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